What would you do if someone you knew, someone you would say is a close friend, asked you to not speak about God or anything spiritual around them? This is what happened to me just a few evenings ago.
Allow me to paint you the picture....His name is Mikey, I have known him for probably 3 years and briefly dated him for probably 2 or 3 weeks in the beginning after we met until we decided that we were better off as friends, which I have always been fine with because of reasons that will become apparent later on in this post. Well, ever since then whenever I talk to him which is about every 2 weeks to 2 months or so, with the exception of when I was with Shawn, Mikey becomes like a "yo-yo" not knowing what he wants from one moment to the next, saying he wants to see where things can go with us. I being the one not holding my breath for it to ever happen, but has always said, "If we are ever going to be more than friends, it is meant to be, it would be."
Ok, so just a few evenings ago, I was talking to Mikey and he goes into his "yo-yo" mode and says he would like to see where things can go with us. At the moment he gives me this line yet again, I am working on yet another school assignment so I am kind of paying attention to him and kind of not. Then that is when he says something that surprised me and yet it didn't. It surprised me because he knows me, he knows who I am and, what he asked me should have never been even a thought to cross his mind. It didn't surprise me because he himself does not believe in God and wants nothing to do with spiritual or as he put it, "religious things".
At this point, I literally stopped what I was doing and just stared at the words he had just written to me. I read and re-read these words at least 3 times, I wanted to make sure that I did in fact read it correctly and didn't misunderstand anything. He said, *this is not exact*, "I would like to try us again, only I don't want you to talk about God or anything religious around me." At first I wasn't sure what to say to him and when I did, I don't believe I gave the right response. It wasn't until last night that I finally did give him the words that I should have spoken to him the moment he wrote those words to me. I told him, "I feel like you are asking me to deny my Father in Heaven and refuse His Name." I told him for him to ask me to not speak of God or anything of that nature, I felt like he was asking me to not be me, that God is a part of me and I can't deny Him or myself."
It got to a point in the conversation where I believe he understood what I was telling him and that I would rather just be his friend but that he needs to accept me for me, as I accept him even if I don't agree with him not believing in God or the bible.
PS: I told him a while ago, I would be praying for him. He said, do what I want but it won't work, he will never believe in God. I guess I need to pray harder.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Thursday, May 8, 2008
THE END
So yeah...things are done with the ex and I. *I know, I know...you're thinking, "she is STILL talking to and about that guy??!?!?? UGH! When will the torture end????"* I swear to you that this will be the last time I ever mention him. Why? You might ask, because I refuse to allow him to continue on with his crap and that is exactly what it is. Now, I bet you are wondering how exactly am I bringing this all to an end??? Well, even though it is not my style, I have decided that I am going to ignore him. Ok, so I really don't know how well this is going to go because I have never been too good with the whole ignoring thing besides it not being my style of dealing with someone. My thoughts are this, chances are he will not go away right away but I am prepared for this. My plan is to ignore him until I need to put my foot down and just tell him to that I think it would be better for us both for him just to go on his way and me go on mine.
As I stated in a previous post, my very spiritual survival is dependant on how I handle this situation as well as if I continue to allow the ex to be in my life. I firmly believe the very people you allow in your life that are not there for the good of you and what God has planned for you, do not need to be in your life. And the ex is just that person who is NOT good for me or what God has planned for me.
So, there it is...THE END!!! *LOL!*
As I stated in a previous post, my very spiritual survival is dependant on how I handle this situation as well as if I continue to allow the ex to be in my life. I firmly believe the very people you allow in your life that are not there for the good of you and what God has planned for you, do not need to be in your life. And the ex is just that person who is NOT good for me or what God has planned for me.
So, there it is...THE END!!! *LOL!*
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Anyone gotta map????
Where is it going? I thought I let it go??? Maybe I did but for some reason because nothing is resolved, I am forced to remain in this situation that I almost reluctantly find myself in until such a moment occurs. I somehow, someway ended up in a very late night/early morning conversation with the ex.
**Side Note~ I didn't seek him out. He sent me a message online and I gave a civilized reply, hoping that it would be kept a minimum. I was nice to him, spoke what I believe was my peace and thought that it was done. ~End Side Note**
So I was just about to go to sleep when I get a text message. "Who the heck is that at this ungodly hour?" I thought to myself. Picture it, I am looking at my phone, "1 New Text Message". I flip it open, "New Message From: Shawn" Yeah, I was surprised too! Pressing ok to view the message, "Are you still up?" At this point I am not only tired and just want to go to bed, I am really unsure as to what to do. "Sort of" I replied. Moving along, rather than waste my text message limit, I opted to call him and basically tell him I am in bed and pretty much ready to close my eyes and try out this new invention called, sleep. He starts in on what happend and how he felt...blah, blah, blah...I went on to tell him for the 100th time that I know what I did was wrong but that I didn't feel 100% that what I did made me feel bad. Big mistake, this started another conversation of him wanting to know what that meant and of course at this point I was ready to say some very colorful words but I didn't.
Skipping ahead of some of the little details, this is what I told him to try and bring the conversation to a close and maybe make this whole thing end so that I can go to sleep and not have to talk to him anymore than I had. At this point, I started feeling a great deal of this and that. Aside from feeling like he was trying to put the blame of the entire situation on me, I felt like I was becoming a broken record that is also known as and called, "Beating a Dead Horse (Poor, Trigger never stood a chance). "Shawn, I realize what I did was wrong. While there is a part of me that feels bad, I am not 100% sorry for what I did. I told you from day one what I will not put up with." *I feel a Dr. Phil moment coming on* "I told you that I have trust issues that prevent me from trusting anyone 100%, especially men. Was I wrong for doing what I did? Yes. Should I have handled it in a different manner? Yes. Do I feel bad for what I did? Yes and No. I feel bad because I went behind your back without just coming to you. I don't feel bad because I had to do what I do best and that is not allow anyone to leave me feeling the way you did. You want to talk about how it made you feel doing what I did. What about how I felt and still feel? Seeing pictures of another woman's unmentionables in MY fiancee's possession doesn't exactly give me a warm an fuzzy feeling." It went on like this for a good hour or two. After a while I finally told him, "I am not expecting either of us to ever forget about this. It is humanly impossible for that to ever happen. But I would like to get a place where we can say, "I forgive you" and move on, regardless of how that happens." I went on to say, "Shawn, I forgive you and I forgive myself. I don't have it in me to remain angry with anyone. Anger is something that can make a person become someone they are not and I refuse to allow that to happen to me. I agree that we will never forget what happend but I for one would like to move on with this already."
It was 4:15am before this conversation ended and it only ended with me telling him that it was really late and I needed to get to bed. I said my good byes and hung up. Again I have to ask, where is this going?
PS: Before I forget, at one point he did mention that he had started talking to another woman not a month after we broke up...ok, so here is what I would like to know, even more than the whole where is this going, is why is he continuing on with this whole thing? The more I try to end things completely and let them go, the more insistant he is on re-hashing it. Can anyone give me a clear understanding about this? Oh and maybe some advice on what to say to him to get him to go away??? I'm doing the praying thing and the not seeking him out thing...what else is there? Do I ignore him? Which I don't necessairly feel good about, not just towards him but anyone because ignoring someone is just not my thing. Maybe I need to just tell him...is that the answer???
**Side Note~ I didn't seek him out. He sent me a message online and I gave a civilized reply, hoping that it would be kept a minimum. I was nice to him, spoke what I believe was my peace and thought that it was done. ~End Side Note**
So I was just about to go to sleep when I get a text message. "Who the heck is that at this ungodly hour?" I thought to myself. Picture it, I am looking at my phone, "1 New Text Message". I flip it open, "New Message From: Shawn" Yeah, I was surprised too! Pressing ok to view the message, "Are you still up?" At this point I am not only tired and just want to go to bed, I am really unsure as to what to do. "Sort of" I replied. Moving along, rather than waste my text message limit, I opted to call him and basically tell him I am in bed and pretty much ready to close my eyes and try out this new invention called, sleep. He starts in on what happend and how he felt...blah, blah, blah...I went on to tell him for the 100th time that I know what I did was wrong but that I didn't feel 100% that what I did made me feel bad. Big mistake, this started another conversation of him wanting to know what that meant and of course at this point I was ready to say some very colorful words but I didn't.
Skipping ahead of some of the little details, this is what I told him to try and bring the conversation to a close and maybe make this whole thing end so that I can go to sleep and not have to talk to him anymore than I had. At this point, I started feeling a great deal of this and that. Aside from feeling like he was trying to put the blame of the entire situation on me, I felt like I was becoming a broken record that is also known as and called, "Beating a Dead Horse (Poor, Trigger never stood a chance). "Shawn, I realize what I did was wrong. While there is a part of me that feels bad, I am not 100% sorry for what I did. I told you from day one what I will not put up with." *I feel a Dr. Phil moment coming on* "I told you that I have trust issues that prevent me from trusting anyone 100%, especially men. Was I wrong for doing what I did? Yes. Should I have handled it in a different manner? Yes. Do I feel bad for what I did? Yes and No. I feel bad because I went behind your back without just coming to you. I don't feel bad because I had to do what I do best and that is not allow anyone to leave me feeling the way you did. You want to talk about how it made you feel doing what I did. What about how I felt and still feel? Seeing pictures of another woman's unmentionables in MY fiancee's possession doesn't exactly give me a warm an fuzzy feeling." It went on like this for a good hour or two. After a while I finally told him, "I am not expecting either of us to ever forget about this. It is humanly impossible for that to ever happen. But I would like to get a place where we can say, "I forgive you" and move on, regardless of how that happens." I went on to say, "Shawn, I forgive you and I forgive myself. I don't have it in me to remain angry with anyone. Anger is something that can make a person become someone they are not and I refuse to allow that to happen to me. I agree that we will never forget what happend but I for one would like to move on with this already."
It was 4:15am before this conversation ended and it only ended with me telling him that it was really late and I needed to get to bed. I said my good byes and hung up. Again I have to ask, where is this going?
PS: Before I forget, at one point he did mention that he had started talking to another woman not a month after we broke up...ok, so here is what I would like to know, even more than the whole where is this going, is why is he continuing on with this whole thing? The more I try to end things completely and let them go, the more insistant he is on re-hashing it. Can anyone give me a clear understanding about this? Oh and maybe some advice on what to say to him to get him to go away??? I'm doing the praying thing and the not seeking him out thing...what else is there? Do I ignore him? Which I don't necessairly feel good about, not just towards him but anyone because ignoring someone is just not my thing. Maybe I need to just tell him...is that the answer???
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
First Gripe!!!
Ok! So whoever handed out stupid driver pills, I want your name, # and, home address...WHY? Cause I am going to hunt you down like that knucklehead that you are!!!
So let me give you the picture. I am driving on 97 headed towards New Cut Rd, I had just gotten off the one ramp to get onto 97 and was not too far from my exit to get off of 97 when this car coming off of another on ramp is signaling to come over onto 97. Ok, no problem so I speed up to try and give this person room to get over behind me or so you might think! Yeah! That didn't happen! This driver totally cut me off!!! I mean to the point where I literally swerved into the other lane to avoid being sideswiped. And then when they see me, they act like I was in the way!!! OMG!!!! I was so mad.
After a second or two, I speed up to get into front of them and then over into the lane I was originally in. It was then I noticed that they were in the lane I had just left and coming up on my left side. I rolled my window down and slowed down a bit, seeing that their window was partially down, I waited until they were just beside me and yelled, "Learn how to freakin' drive dumb-dumb!!" I know not smart to do in this day in age with people carrying guns and whatever but I was mad!!! I swear, I didn't know I was driving the first ever invisible car...I wish someone would have told me before I started driving the thing!!!!
So let me give you the picture. I am driving on 97 headed towards New Cut Rd, I had just gotten off the one ramp to get onto 97 and was not too far from my exit to get off of 97 when this car coming off of another on ramp is signaling to come over onto 97. Ok, no problem so I speed up to try and give this person room to get over behind me or so you might think! Yeah! That didn't happen! This driver totally cut me off!!! I mean to the point where I literally swerved into the other lane to avoid being sideswiped. And then when they see me, they act like I was in the way!!! OMG!!!! I was so mad.
After a second or two, I speed up to get into front of them and then over into the lane I was originally in. It was then I noticed that they were in the lane I had just left and coming up on my left side. I rolled my window down and slowed down a bit, seeing that their window was partially down, I waited until they were just beside me and yelled, "Learn how to freakin' drive dumb-dumb!!" I know not smart to do in this day in age with people carrying guns and whatever but I was mad!!! I swear, I didn't know I was driving the first ever invisible car...I wish someone would have told me before I started driving the thing!!!!
Little things of life...
I thought that I would share my little things of life that I love. Maybe whoever reads this, you can share your little things of life that you love too.
1) Waking up without my alarm blaring in my ear. It's those days when you know you don't have to get up a set time and you can leave your alarm clock off. I love that.
2) Taking a night hot shower after a long day, especially in the winter time when it's freezing outside and getting into a nice warm pair of sweatpants with a comfy shirt and hoodie on top.
3) Seeing my niece and nephew smile the moment they see me at the door before I even step into the house.
4) Fresh clothes out of the dryer, smelling so nice and feeling so warm.
5) The smell of fresh cut grass in the spring and summer.
6) The feeling up putting socks on when my feet are either fresh from a shower or cold...that feeling is so awesome.
7) Sitting and talking to a really good friend about anything, everything and, nothing in between
8) Buying flowers for my Mom just because I know she might need a little pick me up after a long hard couple of weeks.
9) Having a good laugh; the kind where no sound comes out and you are dying to catch your breath.
10) Watching an old movie that I have seen a million times and still being able to discover something new.
1) Waking up without my alarm blaring in my ear. It's those days when you know you don't have to get up a set time and you can leave your alarm clock off. I love that.
2) Taking a night hot shower after a long day, especially in the winter time when it's freezing outside and getting into a nice warm pair of sweatpants with a comfy shirt and hoodie on top.
3) Seeing my niece and nephew smile the moment they see me at the door before I even step into the house.
4) Fresh clothes out of the dryer, smelling so nice and feeling so warm.
5) The smell of fresh cut grass in the spring and summer.
6) The feeling up putting socks on when my feet are either fresh from a shower or cold...that feeling is so awesome.
7) Sitting and talking to a really good friend about anything, everything and, nothing in between
8) Buying flowers for my Mom just because I know she might need a little pick me up after a long hard couple of weeks.
9) Having a good laugh; the kind where no sound comes out and you are dying to catch your breath.
10) Watching an old movie that I have seen a million times and still being able to discover something new.
Monday, May 5, 2008
Time...
Another conversation, only this time it feels different. Is it him that is different or is it me? Maybe it's just time, time to begin to let go of what once was and start to take hold of what is?? Maybe it's all of the above.
Sometimes I wish life was less of the black and white, the this or that and, the yes or no; and more of the multiple choice...like those little bubble test that we took when we were in junior high and high school. While for most of the choices we make, there is no right or wrong answer...the rest are so hard to really even look at, never mind trying to make a decision.
Sitting here I feel like a choice (not of my own doing) has been made. I sat with God today, really laid it out there for Him, even though He knows everything as it happens...before it happens and even long before it was a thought in our minds. Tonight's conversation leads me to wonder, "was my prayer answered?" I feel a sense of sadness, which in situations like this one, lets me know that my prayer was answered. This also leads me to feel utterly confused and I don't know why because as I stated in a previous post, I don't believe that he and I are meant to be together or to get back together. Maybe this is because I know it's finally over and like many people, I don't like it when things end.
So, this is what I have decided. Now I am not sure how well this is going to go because I know me and I know how I can be even after I say I am not going to or I am going to do whatever...
Anyway, after tonight's convo with the ex, I believe I need to step back from even speaking to him. While I will be civilized towards him if he should contact me, I will personally refrain from seeking him out as I have been for the last 2 evenings. I believe this will keep me focused where I need to be focused.
It's clear to me that I need to give God control but I need to help Him in order for Him to help me. I thoroughly believe that while God is the one who puts me on my destined path, I am the one who makes the choices of what my destiny will be. God gives me choices, He gives me the right ones and the wrong ones...it is up to me to make the right ones and if I should make the wrong ones, than that is when God says, "Uh! You may want try that again? Only this time let me direct you." And with that, we learn from what we did and what we should have done.
So this is what I am learning. My ex needs to remain my ex unless God clocks me over the head with a two by four and says, "Yes, it's ok. I'm in on it this time. I know it's ok." and I need to not get swept up in what once was and be involved in what is now and what will be. I am learning that although I did share some good times with Shawn, that was then and this is now. I need to seriously let go and let God, even if that is a very overly used phrase...it still reigns true.
Although I knew this and learned this particular lesson right after the break up, I really need to just be committed to God. Of course that is an all the time thing but more so now than ever before because of where I am at in my life. The enemy would love nothing more than for me to be distracted from God and my attention diverted from God. Until God gives me my partner in life and love, it has to be just me and God. NO DISTRACTIONS ALLOWED!!!
As much as I love Shawn, I must love God and myself more. My very spiritual survival depends on it.
Sometimes I wish life was less of the black and white, the this or that and, the yes or no; and more of the multiple choice...like those little bubble test that we took when we were in junior high and high school. While for most of the choices we make, there is no right or wrong answer...the rest are so hard to really even look at, never mind trying to make a decision.
Sitting here I feel like a choice (not of my own doing) has been made. I sat with God today, really laid it out there for Him, even though He knows everything as it happens...before it happens and even long before it was a thought in our minds. Tonight's conversation leads me to wonder, "was my prayer answered?" I feel a sense of sadness, which in situations like this one, lets me know that my prayer was answered. This also leads me to feel utterly confused and I don't know why because as I stated in a previous post, I don't believe that he and I are meant to be together or to get back together. Maybe this is because I know it's finally over and like many people, I don't like it when things end.
So, this is what I have decided. Now I am not sure how well this is going to go because I know me and I know how I can be even after I say I am not going to or I am going to do whatever...
Anyway, after tonight's convo with the ex, I believe I need to step back from even speaking to him. While I will be civilized towards him if he should contact me, I will personally refrain from seeking him out as I have been for the last 2 evenings. I believe this will keep me focused where I need to be focused.
It's clear to me that I need to give God control but I need to help Him in order for Him to help me. I thoroughly believe that while God is the one who puts me on my destined path, I am the one who makes the choices of what my destiny will be. God gives me choices, He gives me the right ones and the wrong ones...it is up to me to make the right ones and if I should make the wrong ones, than that is when God says, "Uh! You may want try that again? Only this time let me direct you." And with that, we learn from what we did and what we should have done.
So this is what I am learning. My ex needs to remain my ex unless God clocks me over the head with a two by four and says, "Yes, it's ok. I'm in on it this time. I know it's ok." and I need to not get swept up in what once was and be involved in what is now and what will be. I am learning that although I did share some good times with Shawn, that was then and this is now. I need to seriously let go and let God, even if that is a very overly used phrase...it still reigns true.
Although I knew this and learned this particular lesson right after the break up, I really need to just be committed to God. Of course that is an all the time thing but more so now than ever before because of where I am at in my life. The enemy would love nothing more than for me to be distracted from God and my attention diverted from God. Until God gives me my partner in life and love, it has to be just me and God. NO DISTRACTIONS ALLOWED!!!
As much as I love Shawn, I must love God and myself more. My very spiritual survival depends on it.
A blog from my Myspace page
Hmmmm, my thoughts are jumbled. Some thoughts I cannot or will not even go into because they would only confuse me. I am sitting here feeling a little bit of everything. Tired, loopy (thank God for pain killers), sad, lonely...just a lot of a little of this and a little of that kind of feelings.
For the past few days or so I have been struggling with certain feelings and thoughts about something that I am not quite sure how to deal with. I have been daily trying to give it all to God but as a spiritual being with a human body, that is a daily fight. These thoughts have consumed me so much I literally wake up every night having some weird and not so weird dreams that I remember but couldn't explain even if my life depended on it. I am not sure exactly why I am experiencing these dreams much less these thoughts. I'd chalk it up to stress but I am not so sure that it is stress. It might be somewhat due to the stress of school and financial issues I am dealing with but I know it has a good deal to do with an unresolved situation.
It's a little difficult to really put it all into words. Where part of me understands it, the other part of me is still searching for more specific answers or understanding. I find myself lost in thought a lot lately. It's quite mind consuming and sometimes at the most in oppertune (sp) times.
Sometimes I wonder if I shouldn't have just dealt with this in a different way and not influenced in any way by anyone. But at the same time, I remember back to that day and realize that I couldn't even put together the words I wanted to express let alone my own thoughts to collect when it all took place. Of course, we always think of the shouldas, couldas and, wouldas after all is said and done.
Now I find myself talking to the one person I swore I would never speak to again. He tells me he still loves me and I am not sure if it is wishful thinking or what it is but I think I believe him. And I would be lying to myself if I said I didn't still love him. I do still love him. Although I don't want to, I do still love him. I can't explain it but then again, can loving someone ever truly be explained?
While I honestly don't see him and I getting back together it doesn't stop from still loving him. If we did get back together, I believe it would have to be completely and totally a God thing because I don't see any other way.
Strange I guess you can say it what it is now...strange and closely coming to kind of confusing.
For the past few days or so I have been struggling with certain feelings and thoughts about something that I am not quite sure how to deal with. I have been daily trying to give it all to God but as a spiritual being with a human body, that is a daily fight. These thoughts have consumed me so much I literally wake up every night having some weird and not so weird dreams that I remember but couldn't explain even if my life depended on it. I am not sure exactly why I am experiencing these dreams much less these thoughts. I'd chalk it up to stress but I am not so sure that it is stress. It might be somewhat due to the stress of school and financial issues I am dealing with but I know it has a good deal to do with an unresolved situation.
It's a little difficult to really put it all into words. Where part of me understands it, the other part of me is still searching for more specific answers or understanding. I find myself lost in thought a lot lately. It's quite mind consuming and sometimes at the most in oppertune (sp) times.
Sometimes I wonder if I shouldn't have just dealt with this in a different way and not influenced in any way by anyone. But at the same time, I remember back to that day and realize that I couldn't even put together the words I wanted to express let alone my own thoughts to collect when it all took place. Of course, we always think of the shouldas, couldas and, wouldas after all is said and done.
Now I find myself talking to the one person I swore I would never speak to again. He tells me he still loves me and I am not sure if it is wishful thinking or what it is but I think I believe him. And I would be lying to myself if I said I didn't still love him. I do still love him. Although I don't want to, I do still love him. I can't explain it but then again, can loving someone ever truly be explained?
While I honestly don't see him and I getting back together it doesn't stop from still loving him. If we did get back together, I believe it would have to be completely and totally a God thing because I don't see any other way.
Strange I guess you can say it what it is now...strange and closely coming to kind of confusing.
Her name is, Kellie
So, I thought I would blog about my best friend. Her name is, Kellie. She is simply the best. When I think about the years we have share, almost 10 years, I realize that she has been the peanut to my butter and I couldn't ask for anything better.
While we have had our share of ups and downs, she truly is my best friend. I can tell her anything and she still accepts me for me, loves me for me...even though we haven't been able to spend much time together like we used to, we are still as close as if we were to see each other every day or just about.
I remember the first time I met her. What drew me to her was her laugh. She has got the most contagious laugh I have ever heard. Although I had gotten to know her a little bit that day, it wouldn't be until a year later that we would actually get to know each other and start this thing called friendship. I remember when I saw her again after that first year of not seeing her. She walked into church and I just knew that God had brought someone special into my life. I hadn't made a real friend in such a long time at that point, I didn't know how to introduce the idea of getting to know each other without sounding like a dork.
Anyway, after a week or so, I decided I would just give her my number and said, "Let's hang out sometime." She accepted and then gave me her phone #. I was a little shy at first but slowly getting to know her over that first year, I realized that God had given me something I really needed, a good friend...a great friend.
Now nearing 10 years and at least 2 huge fights that kept us from speaking for quite some time later, we are more than best friends. She is my SISTA from another MISTA. LOL!!! Since picking up just about where we left off this last fight we had that ended last July 5th to be exact, I feel like we are stronger, better and closer friends/sisters than ever.
It's quite amazing how life changes, how people can change but still be the same in many ways. It's quite amazing how this one person is truly a gift from God for me. I am blessed more now than ever to call her my Best Friend. I love ya, Girl!!!
While we have had our share of ups and downs, she truly is my best friend. I can tell her anything and she still accepts me for me, loves me for me...even though we haven't been able to spend much time together like we used to, we are still as close as if we were to see each other every day or just about.
I remember the first time I met her. What drew me to her was her laugh. She has got the most contagious laugh I have ever heard. Although I had gotten to know her a little bit that day, it wouldn't be until a year later that we would actually get to know each other and start this thing called friendship. I remember when I saw her again after that first year of not seeing her. She walked into church and I just knew that God had brought someone special into my life. I hadn't made a real friend in such a long time at that point, I didn't know how to introduce the idea of getting to know each other without sounding like a dork.
Anyway, after a week or so, I decided I would just give her my number and said, "Let's hang out sometime." She accepted and then gave me her phone #. I was a little shy at first but slowly getting to know her over that first year, I realized that God had given me something I really needed, a good friend...a great friend.
Now nearing 10 years and at least 2 huge fights that kept us from speaking for quite some time later, we are more than best friends. She is my SISTA from another MISTA. LOL!!! Since picking up just about where we left off this last fight we had that ended last July 5th to be exact, I feel like we are stronger, better and closer friends/sisters than ever.
It's quite amazing how life changes, how people can change but still be the same in many ways. It's quite amazing how this one person is truly a gift from God for me. I am blessed more now than ever to call her my Best Friend. I love ya, Girl!!!
Sunday, May 4, 2008
I be Jammin'
Today was not good at least not the first half of it. I ended up not going to church. After a night of restless sleep and uncontrollable dreaming, I opted to stay home from church. I feel like I should not have done this. I was walking back into my room when BAM! There goes my toes, SNAP! CRACKLE! AND POP! Surprisingly, I didn't cry out in pain like one might think. I simply could not put my foot down and knew I had to have broken either my toes or the very top of my foot where my toes meet. I wrapped my toes and foot, thinking and hoping it would be ok. So not the case, Mom comes in and says, "you need to do something, if something is broken." Then off to Nighttime Pediatrics. 2 hours later, as described to me, I have a common injury that many football players get. So, that was my day.
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