The "In Between"

Ok, so a few days ago or maybe it's been about a week by now; I went over to spend a little bit of time with my best friend and her fiancee' Mike. It was good for the most part. Now before I say anything more, I want to say that I do love her very much but sometimes she gets on my last ever loving nerve. With that said, I will continue.

As those few of you that read my blogs are aware of I have been seeing this guy I call my friend boy, Steve. Ever since we stated that there is a little more between us than just friendship, Kellie has been asking me if things have changed. Well, the other night when I went over to her house, I told her that Steve and I are not just friends but we are not quite boyfriend and girlfriend. We are dating. She tells me, that there is no in between. Of course instead of getting into anything, I just told her that where Steve and I are is where we are comfortable and we agree that taking things slow and as they come is what is best for us because as we have discovered, he has made the same dating/relationship mistakes as I have and we both want to do things right. Over time we will see if it going to be something more and in the mean time we are putting God first. Besides that, I am still in school and he is going to be going back to Texas some time after Christmas to complete his schooling that he wasn't able to finish a few years ago due to unforeseen issues that brought him back here. In my personal opinion though, I believe that him seeing me get my bachelor's and now moving on to get my master's has lit a fire under his butt to want to make himself a better man and I am all for that.

The one thing that I don't understand and why some people can't respect what Steve and I have. We care about each other, are there for each other as much as possible and, we are on the same page as life together is concerned. I guess maybe some things are better left just not understanding.

I'm not...

I’m not…

I’m not perfect. In fact I am as close to imperfect as one woman can get,
I’m not what I want to be; on that you can place any bet but I am who I am meant to be and that’s one thing you must never forget.

I’m not skinny like most I know; I’m not tall or short. I’m what I call a “happy medium” something different and rare; it’s ok if you feel the need to stare. I’m not always the best at being positive but I sure do give it a try. Please don’t shed a tear, I can’t stand to see people cry; least of all for me, I am who I am and it’s all I can be.

I’m not great at hiding my feelings or so I have been told, I’ve tried over and over again; I think it’s time to get a new trick, this one is…well, getting old. I’m not very well cordinated and sometimes I just lose all control but I am always true to myself deep down in my soul.

© August 24, 2008