Plea to God

The picture you see above is of Steve and I in Old Colorado City, Colorado. It was one of many that were taken while in Colorado for my graduation.

Dear God....

I cannot express my thoughts or feelings right now. They are so jumbled up, I cannot make heads or tails of it. You see as recently as 2 weeks ago or there abouts, Steve and I unbeknowest to us, grew closer together intimately....*with words*...I should be clear about that because he and I both are sustaining ourselves until marriage...regardless of it is us together or separate with other people. Anyway, since that night, my spirit has been crying out for him; really seeing things without the blinders on and knowing the truth about who he is and his life as he knows it and has apparently always known it. And then last night, another blow was thrown his way. I cannot get into details but it's bad from what I know. And all I can keep thinking is..."Dear God! He cannot take anymore" I see it in his eyes...it breaks my heart.

I have been praying and praying; evening stopping what I am doing to pray for him and this situation that he finds himself in.

It saddens me that I know what I know and cannot do a little about it. I feel helpless.

Please God allow me to be used in this situation. Somehow and someway. I love you! Amen!