2 months....

2 months ago, I reunited with someone I never imagined I would ever see again. Someone I fondly thought of often and someone I knew I would never forget if I never saw him again. Steve back into my life at what I consider to be the best time. You see I had been asking God is show me my self worth since I had broken up with Stupid...er I mean, Shawn. Through my family I could see glimpses but not quite everything I needed to see. I am a firm believer in you are a reflection of the people around you and so I know that I am a good person, daughter, sister, aunt and, friend; I deserve the best that God can and has given me. However, there was that part of me that was still lost.

I want to say about a month or so before I met Steve again, I realized that kind of woman I wanted to be as far as purity goes. And when I say purity, I do not strictly mean in the physical sense; i.e. sexually. I mean completely! Body, Mind, Heart and, Spirit; not just to myself and for myself but to and for God; as well as whoever my husband will be. I have even gone so far as to wear a purity ring that simply states, "True Love Waits". Then I met Steve again. Steve has got to be the most spirit filled, God-loving and believing man I have ever met in a very long time. Now that is not to say that he is perfect, I am still praying for him to come to church with me or at least get into a church once again, that is just to say that I believe God truly knew the kind of man and friend I would need in my life when Steve came back into my life. Please do not confuse that last thought. I am not stating that Steve is my man, I am just stating the kind of man he is.

After meeting Steve again, I began to see the lost part of me that I have been searching to see. God showed me more of the kind of woman I want to be, a virtuous woman. When I am around Steve, I can honestly say that I see God in him. I not only see God I can feel him with us. And when I look at Steve, I see my reflection. I see that part of me that I never saw before with the other men that I have dated, been friends with or, most recently engaged to. I now know that I was nothing more to them than a "time killer" or shamefully, a "play thing". Actually, I learned this lesson not too long after I ended the engagement to my last mistake or rather lesson learned. It was just confirmed through God bringing Steve back into my life over the past 2 months or a little more acutally by now as I type this. But who is counting? LOL!!! Oh Heck! I am, I like the man and I don't care who knows it or care if I am counting the days since we reunited. LOL!!!

Anyway, I guess what I am trying to convey here is that I am without a doubt blessed to have such a great friend boy. And I hope if it is God's Will that we can share the rest of our lives together, regardless of the "titles" we share, i.e. Boyfriend/Girlfriend or whatever.