An Open Letter to God...

Dear God,


It's me, one of your millions and millions of daughters, Becky. Can we talk? I understand that you never ever said that life would be easy but um, can you help me out a bit here? I mean don't get me wrong I know I am the clay and you are the potter; and you gotta mold and shape me, and all that jazz but I feel like I have had enough for a bit and need a wee bit of a break; if it's possible. If not, could just give me the peace and strength I need to get through this time?

Since October of last year, I have been having struggle after struggle and just when I think I have made it through; more struggle comes my way and I feel so tired that all I want to do is sleep until it all goes away and I know it can't be that way. I need a job, like last week. I do believe there is a job out there for me but I gotta tell ya; I'm getting tired of searching. I feel like I am fishing in a body of water that has nothing but sewage floating around in it and the fish have all bailed out in search of better living conditions.

So, if you could, and when you have time; could you help me out a little? Oh! I know you have provided for me thus far but in all honesty, I wish to be able to have the provision come from you through me for once. It's hard to watch someone else struggle because of my struggle. I just don't see where that is fair to them even though they love me as much as they do to do anything for me no matter what the reason or need.

I hope that I am not asking for too much here. I love you and pray you are with me always.

Love,
Becky