The "I rest in Him" Challenge

There are days when I know that it is not going to be the best day I could ever hope for and then there are days when I know that it is going to be a day of great joy and fun.

Whenever I have a bad day, most of those bads days are asking God to Bless it. I am always saying, "God Bless it" because I know even if it turns out not so great, God is still blessing it *whatever "it" is*. Even in the bad days that we have there are still blessings. Let's see, my bad was yesterday and kind of today but God blessed it. How?, you might be asking. Well, I will tell you. I rest in Him.

I have an awesome family and the best friend boy, Steve (he is not quite my boyfriend so I have been calling him my friend boy). Over the last few weeks we have been making plans for me to get a "new to me* car and selling my "old" car to Steve who has not had a car in nearly 3 years and has been struggling to get a car any way he can but to no avail. I told him yesterday that the whole car thing was just one reason why God brought us together. He totally agreed with this statement and had the biggest smile on his face. Well, after weeks of planning and getting things together, there were a few bumps in that road that kind of made it feel like it was not going to happen BUT it did. Suffice it to say there were a few breakdowns and tears were shed out of pure frustration. In the mist of it all, Kellie *my BFFL* tells me it'll be ok. Steve tells me, have faith and then, Kellie's Dad *my adopted-wish-he-were-my-dad, Dad* tells me, it'll settle down just give it time. Of course Mom is being Mom and taking care of everything.

Although we are still riding out the wave it really has gotten better. I know that no matter what takes place God Blesses it all and I rest in Him.

So here is where the challenge comes in...are you ready for this? Ok, here it goes....

What I would like to challenge you all to do *even if I have just one reader*, I want you to ask God to Bless it. No matter how big or small this issue or problem is, just simply say these 3 words: "God Bless it". It may not help matters at first but eventually you will see the adverse effects that these words will have on the "it" that you are asking God to bless. Then what I want you to do, but it is not required, is pass this challenge on to your family and friends.

My Love Language

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	10
Physical Touch:	7
Acts of Service:	7
Words of Affirmation:	6
Receiving Gifts:	0

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Going somewhere???

So yesterday was a very busy day for me. I got up took care of some school things and then went over to Steve's (he wanted to run by the car shop to ask a few questions about the inspection they did on my soon-to-be-old-car) then we headed over to Annapolis and walked around the mall for a bit. It was a nice day. Then we went to his brother's house and hung out for a bit. At some point he was told about this birthday party for a friend of his from work and asked if I would like to go. Ok, that was outta no where; I said yes of course because I wanted to spend more time with Steve. I come to find out that he wanted me to meet some of his really good friends. Which by the way, I know is code for..."I really like you and want to see what my friends think."

We get there and automatically I am welcomed in like I had been their friends too for as long as Steve has been their friends, it was cool! After a while, we had to make a quick run to drop off something to his brother that Steve forgot to take care of before he and I left his brother's house. As we were dropping whatever off to his brother, another friend of his that was kind of a friend of mine that I went to church with a long time ago came out and said hi to me. She then started asking about me and Steve, which I just casually looked at Steve to see what he would say; with a big smile and blushing he said, "Yeah. We are talking" again, I know this code for, "I am liking her and want to see where this goes." So, we leave there and go back to the party.

Suffice it to say, I am REALLY liking where this is going and look forward to more times with Steve. YAY!!!

Frustration sets in...Dear God HELP ME!!!! *Disclaimer* This is just a vent blog. Please don't think I am crazy or something. I am just venting.

Ok, so I am a little on the frustrated side of life right now. Trying to keep your cool around someone you are butt-crazy about is hard freakin' work!!! Dude, seriously I am totally feelin' like at any moment I am going to do something that is going to end up with me being in one of those, "YEAH! I gotta um go, there is something I forgot to take care of, um...yeah! that's it!" and then just find a rock to crawl under and hide until the rapture comes and takes me up moments. LOL!! Ok!!! So that was a little much there but that is how I am feeling.

When I am around him, I am fine. I try to just go with the flow of things. You know, calm...cool and oh so collected; BUT the guy is so perceptive that I know eventually he going to see through this facade. Oh! and let me tell you how perceptive he is, this is impressive to me even if he is deaf, he is still a guy and most guys I have known or know are not as perceptive as he is or can be. *Side Note: No offense to any of the guys out there that might be reading this, I have just never known any guy as perceptive as he is. End Side Note* Now when I am not around him, my mind is going in all sorts of different directions. I know, I know...this is not a good place to be in because I may end up taking a chance of somehow, someway mixing up the two worlds I am living in right now and get all sorts of messed up. Here is where my disclaimer comes into play. I know I just sounded like I went on the "coo-coo for coco puffs" side of whatever there but really I am just as sane as the next person...I just describe things a little differently is all. Besides as the title states, this is just a vent blog anyway.

Today we spent most of the afternoon just hanging out and watched a movie, then I took him to work (yeah he is so looking forward to having my what will be old car as soon as I get my new car) and then I came home and did some school work (what else is new there?) and now I am right back to being in the "my mind is in all sorts of different directions" mode. Is this healthy? I am beginning to wonder if maybe school has taken away my ability to be the logical person that I normally am??? Or maybe I just need more sleep??? Anything is possible...Right?

Ok, I better end this here before someone goes looking for a straigh-jacket in my size. Later taters!

I like him, He likes me...where's the problem???

Ok so, I like him and I know he likes me...but where's the problem??? Really there is no problem at least not with us anyway. I guess I am just trying to find a way to gain more perspective on the situation as it is. You see, I know he likes me...it's obvious to me and everyone around us but he won't admit it. I know why he won't admit it...there are several reasons, one being me. I have a way of messing things up and I know he can see that. Now when I say, "messing things up", I don't mean it in a bad way. What I mean by that is, I can get to a point where I become "SUPER GIRLFRIEND!!!" Most guys are not into having that, at least not the ones that I had in the past and Steve is VERY VERY perceptive!!! You see he is hearing impaired and extremely sensitive to everything. I could be sitting in the car with him and he looks at me and knows when I have something on my mind or if I have had a bad day. He is so smart too, it's almost scary to me. I mean not that I doubt his intelligence, I am just surprised at the life he has lived and though I still worry about him, I know that he will always be ok.

Anyway, I have kind of fallen off the main topic of this blog. So, I like him and of course he knows this...and I am fairly certain that he likes me but he will not admit to it. He has said as much that he wants to take things slow. While I am all for this plan of action, I am left with two different questions that I am not quite sure that I should even ask him; let alone think about them for myself. #1) Are we friends seeing where it can go? Or #2) Are we friends seeing if you want to take it a step further? These questions, especially the 2nd one leads to other thoughts and questions like, "If we are friends, seeing if you want to take it a step further, does that mean you are going to tell me at any moment that he thinks we are better of as friends???" So yeah, I am trying to stay in the moment and just take one day at a time but honestly, this is getting hard. Probably one of the hardest things that I have ever had to find a way to be balanced in. So far I am doing ok, I think??? I just know that I like him and that God has given me this great person in my life and I don't want to ever be without him in my life; regardless of the kind of relationship we have.

*DEEP SIGH* I suppose I just need to let God do whatever He is going to do regardless of what I want and what I hope for. Ok, enough of that...

Something is wrong here!!!!

So, when did it become ok to be an adult and act like a child??? Apparently I missed this memo at some point in my adult life.

I'm in college, I have less than 2 months left before I am done with the Bachelor's Program. I have been doing this for almost 2 and a 1/2 years. Now I realize whenever I first started with the college thing, it wouldn't always be a picnic in the park but seriously, you have got to be kidding me!!!

I have had my share of people I can't seem to work with for one reason or another and I have had my share of no one doing their work for whatever the reason but for someone to all out refuse to work as a group and help fix a problem that they caused is something new on me. Something is seriously wrong here when if in the real world you pulled this crap, you would be fired. I never wish anything bad to happen to anyone but I pray that God allows this person to reap what they have sown today.

To say I am pee'd off is putting it mildly and today's events make me want it to end even quicker.

Stressed??? Yes!!!!!

Imagine if you will, God saying to you, "I want to give you something BUT, you have to go through everything it will take to have it." You say, "ok" without question, why would you question, it's God...who questions God??? Well, I know...I know, we all do at some point but when it comes to life's blessings who really quesitons Him???

So anyway, that is where I am at. I always praying that God keeps me faithful in the small things because I know eventually He is going to give some bigs things that I will, without a doubt, need to be extremely faithful in.

For the last 2 almost 2 and a half years I have been doing the college thing and by the grace and mercy of God I have done extremely well. So, why do I still have this fear that I am going to fall flat on my face??? I know it's just the stress of it all talking but seriously, I feel like any moment now, the rug is going to be pulled from right under me and I am going to be flat on the floor; wondering what just happened? Would God really bring me this far and then take it all away from me? It's not likely but at the same time, it could happen because well, God is God and He can do whatever He wants without ever consulting us. It's not like He's gonna say, "Hey Becky! I was just thinking, how would you feel if I did this or that?" Yeah like that'll ever happen, nice thought though.

I am beyond stressed out. All this week will be nothing but school work, as if that is any different from weeks and months before, but for me this is way different. I have 20 days left of these 2 classes and then I am down to 2 classes, I will be literally weeks away and then I graduate.

I was talking with my friend, Steve just last week about this. He said, "You have to be so excited, like when you graduated from high school?" I said, "Oh No! This is on a totally different level. This is like so big, it could never ever touch high school or high school greaduation." It's different because well, unlike high school I am seriously paying big bucks to make my life better professionally speaking, not to mention the fact that it's much harder when you are practically teaching yourself. So suffice it to say, I am full of so many emotions...I want to cry, dance, laugh, scream and, then do it all over again...emotions wise, you couldn't pay me enough to do this Bachelor's Degree Program thing again...not unless I had the choice to be on an actualy campus. That I would definitely change if I had to do it all over again.

And let's not mention the MBA I will begin working towards in Oct. Yeah, I feel like my life, professionally speaking, hangs on the fingers tips of God's hand and there is nothing I can do but pray. Thank God for the power and greatness of prayer, I seriously have no idea where I would be without it.

Well, I need to be up at the buttcrack of dawn tomorrow and it's only 30 mins away from midnight. Much love to you all and blessings for a good week ahead.