Stressed??? Yes!!!!!

Imagine if you will, God saying to you, "I want to give you something BUT, you have to go through everything it will take to have it." You say, "ok" without question, why would you question, it's God...who questions God??? Well, I know...I know, we all do at some point but when it comes to life's blessings who really quesitons Him???

So anyway, that is where I am at. I always praying that God keeps me faithful in the small things because I know eventually He is going to give some bigs things that I will, without a doubt, need to be extremely faithful in.

For the last 2 almost 2 and a half years I have been doing the college thing and by the grace and mercy of God I have done extremely well. So, why do I still have this fear that I am going to fall flat on my face??? I know it's just the stress of it all talking but seriously, I feel like any moment now, the rug is going to be pulled from right under me and I am going to be flat on the floor; wondering what just happened? Would God really bring me this far and then take it all away from me? It's not likely but at the same time, it could happen because well, God is God and He can do whatever He wants without ever consulting us. It's not like He's gonna say, "Hey Becky! I was just thinking, how would you feel if I did this or that?" Yeah like that'll ever happen, nice thought though.

I am beyond stressed out. All this week will be nothing but school work, as if that is any different from weeks and months before, but for me this is way different. I have 20 days left of these 2 classes and then I am down to 2 classes, I will be literally weeks away and then I graduate.

I was talking with my friend, Steve just last week about this. He said, "You have to be so excited, like when you graduated from high school?" I said, "Oh No! This is on a totally different level. This is like so big, it could never ever touch high school or high school greaduation." It's different because well, unlike high school I am seriously paying big bucks to make my life better professionally speaking, not to mention the fact that it's much harder when you are practically teaching yourself. So suffice it to say, I am full of so many emotions...I want to cry, dance, laugh, scream and, then do it all over again...emotions wise, you couldn't pay me enough to do this Bachelor's Degree Program thing again...not unless I had the choice to be on an actualy campus. That I would definitely change if I had to do it all over again.

And let's not mention the MBA I will begin working towards in Oct. Yeah, I feel like my life, professionally speaking, hangs on the fingers tips of God's hand and there is nothing I can do but pray. Thank God for the power and greatness of prayer, I seriously have no idea where I would be without it.

Well, I need to be up at the buttcrack of dawn tomorrow and it's only 30 mins away from midnight. Much love to you all and blessings for a good week ahead.