I like him, He likes me...where's the problem???

Ok so, I like him and I know he likes me...but where's the problem??? Really there is no problem at least not with us anyway. I guess I am just trying to find a way to gain more perspective on the situation as it is. You see, I know he likes me...it's obvious to me and everyone around us but he won't admit it. I know why he won't admit it...there are several reasons, one being me. I have a way of messing things up and I know he can see that. Now when I say, "messing things up", I don't mean it in a bad way. What I mean by that is, I can get to a point where I become "SUPER GIRLFRIEND!!!" Most guys are not into having that, at least not the ones that I had in the past and Steve is VERY VERY perceptive!!! You see he is hearing impaired and extremely sensitive to everything. I could be sitting in the car with him and he looks at me and knows when I have something on my mind or if I have had a bad day. He is so smart too, it's almost scary to me. I mean not that I doubt his intelligence, I am just surprised at the life he has lived and though I still worry about him, I know that he will always be ok.

Anyway, I have kind of fallen off the main topic of this blog. So, I like him and of course he knows this...and I am fairly certain that he likes me but he will not admit to it. He has said as much that he wants to take things slow. While I am all for this plan of action, I am left with two different questions that I am not quite sure that I should even ask him; let alone think about them for myself. #1) Are we friends seeing where it can go? Or #2) Are we friends seeing if you want to take it a step further? These questions, especially the 2nd one leads to other thoughts and questions like, "If we are friends, seeing if you want to take it a step further, does that mean you are going to tell me at any moment that he thinks we are better of as friends???" So yeah, I am trying to stay in the moment and just take one day at a time but honestly, this is getting hard. Probably one of the hardest things that I have ever had to find a way to be balanced in. So far I am doing ok, I think??? I just know that I like him and that God has given me this great person in my life and I don't want to ever be without him in my life; regardless of the kind of relationship we have.

*DEEP SIGH* I suppose I just need to let God do whatever He is going to do regardless of what I want and what I hope for. Ok, enough of that...