A New Year

Wow! Talk about falling off the face of the plant??? It's been almost a month since I last blogged anything. So, to make up for lost time I will bring in the new year kickin' it blog style.

First and foremost, my new nephew arrived yesterday morning at 9:07am weighing in at 8.75 lbs and 20.6 inches long. BIG BOY!!!! His name is Wyatt Alan Redick (2nd middle name may be spelled wrong because I keep forgetting to ask my sis in law how she spells it). He is the final addition to the Wilson clan for my brother and his wife. And boy does he fit that mold. He already knows what he wants when he wants it but fortunately, does make too much of a fuss about it...at least not yet; we are still waiting to see how his little personality is. If he is anything like his Big Sister and Brother, it will not take long.

In other news, Steve and I are doing well. We are still taking things as they come and learning more and more about each other as the days pass by. I am so blessed with him in my life. I can't see my life with him now, not that I saw it before when we first met 7 years ago.

Things with my knee are getting better each day, although there are days when I don't always feel that way. But they are getting better. Hopefully, I will be able to get good news when I see my doctor again and he tells me that I can start looking for a part-time job of some sort...until then, I am looking into becoming an Avon consultant. I will keep that detail open as it becomes more updated.

That is about all...til next time.

A ramble of a blog

Some might say that the choice I am about or rather have made. For a while now, more so since my surgery, I have been feeling like I needed to make some changes in my life. More specifically, letting go of certain people in my life that are not; in all honesty, healthy for me and my well-being.

Moving on, things with Steve are great. We've had a few learning moments but that is what happens with a new relationship. You are learning about yourself with a new person and a new person in how their lives are. Of course, Steve and I had our learning moment as friends but now we are more than just friends and learning the romantic side of things or the lack of a better way of putting. We are learning how to love each other as people, friends and, life mates. It's a test at times for me because I have only known those guys that just do not make good boyfriends and Steve well, he is on the other end of the spectrum to where I need to almost learn that he is not like the rest and that I can truly believe everything he says and does. And that there is nothing I cannot tell him and he will accept it and help me when I need it.

I am not sure if this ramble made any sense but there it is....

I am Thankful....

...for God and all that He is in my life. Without Him I am truly nothing.
...for my family. They give me the ability to believe in myself when I forget how to. I love them very much.
...for my friends. New and old friends show me so much. They show me what is real and what is not so real in friendship.
...for my little animal children. They love me unconditionally without a doubt.
...for my other family (Steve's Family). Although we have yet to really get to know each other, I know that one day we will have a bond that will be unbreakable.
...for the my niece Ava and Nephews, Cole and Wyatt. They give me every reason in the world to believe in life and miracles.
...for my boyfriend/future husband, Steve. I never thought I would find a real man who believes in life, love and, more importantly God. He gives me every reason to believe.

Attempting to waste time...

I sit here is a very blah mood. I am trying not to be so blah but you see the thing is, I am not having very much success. Today as much as I could I tried to keep busy. That's been somewhat difficult because of my current situation, I gots me a bum leg and I can't get around very well. While I am better than I was, I still have a long way to go before I am better completely. I cleaned today and put away clean laundry. That took me a few hours and then by the time I was done with all of that, I decided to get myself a shower; which is a feat in and of itself. Then by the time I got that done, Mom came home and we had a small birthday thing and watched some re-runs of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition for a few hours.

Now I am here. It's nearing 11pm and I am going stir crazy. I've been in this position 2 other times and let me tell you, it still sucks. As I stated above, it's hard to get around. I have to wear this knee emobilizer. It is not only the most uncomfortable thing that I can think of in the world at this moment but it's the most incredibly annoying thing in the world at this moment too. Now this one is way better than the first two I had for my other surgeries but it's still annoying and uncomfortable. It slides down as I am walking so I have to try and take smaller strides and move slower. This has helped but it still slides down or gets all crooked like. It's just flat out annoying.

I am trying to hang on until I can see Steve again. It's driving me nuts!!!! I knew I would miss him but I honestly didn't think I would miss him this much. You know it makes me think about past relationships. I never missed my now exes like I miss Steve. It's weird in a way. But I know it's because I finally found real love. It's amazing. I look at him and I know like I did the first day I saw him after 7 years of not seeing each other, that he was the one that God had made for me. For the 6 months that we were in friends only/kinda dating mode, I told myself that he probably doesn't see me any other way but as a friend. But I recently found out that he would want to ask me out but would back down the moment he felt what he felt. He said this happened 3 different times. He said, "Then I just finally couldn't hold back anymore."

Ok, I think I better end this babble fest and call it a night. Maybe tomorrow will be a faster day than today was or at least the way it felt.

The Birthday Blog

So tomorrow (November 24th) is my birthday. To be exact it is my 31st birthday. I am not sure how to feel about it. This is for a few different reasons.

1) I am turning 31....who wants to get older???

2) My boyfriend, Steve is not here to celebrate it...he is in Louisanna for the holiday and as it with my current condition could not travel with him.

3) I am not into birthdays much anymore...

I don't know, I guess it's a "getting older" thing. I am trying to look at it as a new beginning. A new year to make my life better, myself a better person and, all that comes with new beginnings. So with that said, Happy Birthday to me!

3rd Times The Charm???

Ok, so I am finally able to see here long enough to update my blog and fill you in on why I asked for prayers. Holloween night, I was helping my sis in law with the kids because my brother was not home from work yet. We had just gotten to the 1st house and were about to leave for our next stop, that's when it happened. I felt myself about to fall and because I had Ava in my arms, I did everything I could to take the brunt of the fall. Before I continue, a little background...

About 10+ years ago, I injured myself by falling on some ice. I dislocated my knee and that is when all the troubles began. Since then I have had 2 surgeries, both of which did nothing to help my knee from dislocating. Ok, so now that you are filled in on that; I will go on.

So, Holloween night; we had just left the house and gotten to our first house of the night. Ava and Cole are still very young to understand trick or treating, so being me I was doing all I could to help Courtney with the kids until Jeremy got home from work, hoping he wouldn't miss what was left of the evening. Ava and I stared to walk down the steps of our first stop. She is a little slow at going up and down the stairs, so I decided I would pick her up and get her down the stairs quicker so that the other little ones in the neighborhood could get to the door for their candy. I was on the last step when I felt my knee cap come out of place. I could then feel myself start to loose my balance. Because Ava was in my arms, I didn't want to drop her and have her hurt. So, I grabbed for the railing more than I had my hand on it originally and slowly took myself down to the ground. I set Ava down and immediately straigtend out my leg to put my knee cap back in place. Instantly I knew it was bad when I could barely move; or for that matter get up. The ambulance was called and I was headed to the ER.

Now we are here. I am set for reconstructive surgery on Monday the 10th and I am praying that the 3rd time is the charm. I mean that is the saying, right? And things usually go right on the 3rd try, right? So that is why I asked for prayers.

Thank you all.

Asking for Prayers...

I really don't have much time to go into great details. But if you could please pray for me. Thanks!