Wedding Things ~n~ More

Below is an idea of the wedding dress that I am looking to possibly get. I am not sure yet though. Because of the theme we are going with, I am looking for a very different dress.

Let me know what you think???






Now my ring. This is my temp ring. Steve and I are planning on having something special made by his Aunt who is a jeweler.

I'm asking myself...

...did I go to college for nothing? I ask this question because now that I have been given the go ahead to get a job from my doctor, I am having loads of unluck finding one. The other reason I am asking this question is because earlier tonight, while watching the news, I heard of so many industries letting their people go and cutting hours; as well as pay for others. It scares the begeezus outta me. It makes me wonder if I am and many others are going to be able to make a life for ourselves or going to be living hand to mouth.

I don't want to worry about my well-being or my bid to "survive" this world and all that it takes to live a good life, not a perfect life but a good life.

The search continues for a job...at least one that allows me to be provided for.

I love....

....my baby! He gave me the best day today. A few days ago, he told me that he had a surprise for me. He said, I would have to be blindfolded and could not even try to peek. We kind of over slept for what we needed to get done today but he still took me for my surprise.

My surprise??? He took me to this place called, "Xpress It"; it's a ceramic painting place in Crofton. When we first reconnected and hung out as friends, I told him that I had always wanted to do something like that but didn't want to do it alone and most times didn't have anyone to do it with because they were always busy or something would come up. I was so surprised even though it would not be that big of a deal for someone else, it was a big deal for me. I love the simple things, the little things.

As for what I painted, I painted a butterfly shaped dish. I definitely want to go back and do it again. I think next time I will paint some pet dishes for my cats, Cleo and Tigger. It was so hard to choose what to paint. Steve was hoping to paint a gecko but they were out of the ceramic ones they normally carry. It was then that I saw that they had a wood shaped gecko thing on the wall. The lady said that is for their glass mosaics that they have available if he wanted to do that. He is so proud of his creation as am I.

It was a good day!

PS: Pictures of our creations to come once complete after the finishing touches.

Oh! Hunting I will go...Dress Hunting that is...

For a while now I have been thinking about selling the wedding dress that My Mom bought me for what was to be my first and only marriage about 6 years ago. Yes, you read correctly; I have had a wedding dress in my closet for 6 years. I always thought that it would be the dress I would wear regardless of who I would marry. While Steve really didn't have any issues against it, tonight he finally told me that he had been thinking about it and said that he would like for me to have a dress that would represent our union and not what was with another man. If that makes sense.

So, now the hunt begins for a new dress and the hope also begins to sell this dress that I currently have. For anyone interested...here are the details: Worn once when tried on to buy, paid $400.00 for the dress and $150.00 for the veil that will be sold along with it. Both in great condition and extremely beautiful. Strapless. Off white cream in color. Veil is the same color and is accented with crystal like jewels in between the scallops of the design in the veil. Dress is size 18.

Now the dress I am looking for is hard to describe but as soon as I get pictures I will post them...

I'm off to do some hunting online. Later...

Contemplating Wedding Ideas and Choices Made

So, I'm getting married. HOLY JUMPIN' JESUS ON A POGO STICK!!!! As I stated in a previous blog, this feels so real and so great. I still sometimes can't believe it though.

There is so much to think about. We have yet to pick a date. This is due in part to we don't want to make that committment without getting certain things in order; mainly getting myself a job (still waiting on my doctor to release me to work because of my knee). We want to have some finanical stability before we get married. With Steve's job, he does make good money but it's not enough to live on; much less get married. We want to do things as close to right as possible. But that doesn't mean that we have not made any plans/choices for the wedding.

So far, we have decided that there will be 4 Attendants on both sides. His are: Andrew - Steve's younger brother, Peter - Steve's youngest brother, Tony - Steve's Friend and Boss; and, Brian - Steve's Older Cousin. Mine are: Kellie - My best friend, Kristy - My childhood best friend, Courtney - My sister in law and, Amy - Steve's younger cousin. We have yet to ask either of them but I don't see an issue with either of them saying no. We've also picked colors. They are midnight blue, silver and, crystal (the last one is not really a color persay but we are going to incorporate it in our wedding. Now the wedding itself is going to be a bit different. It's going to be a bit traditional with a twist of punk. The punk is definitely Steve's style coming into play there because that is just him and because I am so not the typical bride to be, I will forever and always say that this is OUR wedding; not just mine. There are so many brides out there at that say it's my day blah blah. I totally think it is about both the bride and the groom. Now, I am little weary thinking about the punk aspect of the wedding but I think I can make it work with my womanly touches without Steve complaining too much. LOL!!!

Let's see what else...oh yeah! We have decided on some decor for the reception. Steve loves fish and he has gotten me into fish as well. So we are going to somehow have fish as part of our center pieces on the tables at our reception.

So far things are coming together. But I know that it will not always be this way....LOL!!!

Love and Marriage...

...No, I am not going to sing the theme song to that old show. LOL! I was just sitting here thinking about my engagement and pending marriage.

You see at least 2 other times I was engaged and clearly they both didn't work out. When I look at my ring, (pictures coming soon; I promise) I realize there is something completely different in this ring. This ring is the real thing.

It's like my last knee surgery. The first two were so different from this last one. I feel stronger and more confident that this one is the one that finally "fixed" me.

With this 3rd engagement, I realize that I finally have the man that God created for me and me for him. I know that without any doubt, even in the not so good of times; that Steve and I were meant to be.

Now that we are engaged, I find myself thinking about everything from colors to where we will live and so on. I find myself overthinking; which I am very good at. It's funny, 8 months ago we were just friends with a pinch more there growing...and now we are heading down the road to be husband and wife.

He asked...

...and I said, "YES!"

So, I have been asked to blog about my proposal. Ok, here it goes....

For a while now Steve and I have been talking about getting married and all that good stuff that comes with getting married. All the while just taking things as they come because in life there are no real certainties that things will work out the way you hope that they do. Well, it was getting close to Christmas and Steve started bringing up a little more; I was pretty sure that he was going to ask for at Christmas but not too long before Christmas he suggests with money being tight for us both that we just focus on getting presents for our families and then we would wait until after the New Year to get our presents for each other. This was fine by me because I am more of a giver than a taker. Ok, so skipping ahead.

We were at his night job last week week, I believe it was Wednesday; when he says that he going to need me the coming Tuesday which was last night but that was all he said. I politely reminded him that I was going to be needed at my brother's and his wife's that night. He said, "I'll change that." I was a little on the weary side of that because of how my brother and his wife are when it comes to needing my help, they will not let go of me for anyone unless it is a great emergency. Well, thinking that Jeremy is going to say no; I was pretty much prepared for a let down. But the no never came and all he said was ok. I was thinking that was a little strange. I asked Steve what he needed me for and all he said was, "It's a surprise." Now I am thinking, "Ok! What could it be?" I kind of let it go until that Friday night when I asked him if it was my Christmas present, he gave his standard; I-wanna-say-yes-but-I-love-to-torture-you answer, "Maybe". I knew that was a yes. I kept asking questions. After a while he says, "Ok! You want to know so badly, I am going to just act it out for you." I started to protest because I wanted to wait until the actual day that he had things planned out. But he acted it out anyway. I didn't believe him when he got on one knee and pretended to open a box and hold it out to me. And then he asked me...he told me later he wanted to ask me in private before he gave me a ring for all to see first because he is somewhat of a private person. I didn't mind it one bit. But then with certain bills coming up, I started to wonder if he had even gotten a ring or was going to be able to if he hadn't already. So, when Tuesday came and nothing special happened like he said it would; I was feeling a little bummed. Skipping ahead again....

So, I am sitting in the living room while Steve is shampooing the carpets. He comes over and sits next to me, taking a break. He said, "I really wanted to do this in a special way but it looks like that is not going to happen." He then got on one knee and pulls out the box. He said, "I love you. Will you be my wife and live with me in the hard times and the good times; no matter what comes our way, until our last day of life?" I told him yes.

Now for the ladies who want the details of the ring...I have been told that it is just a temporary ring, that the "real" one will be better than the one I have now. It's a round cut solitare. I will post pictures soon.

So, there it is...the proposal.