Attempting to waste time...

I sit here is a very blah mood. I am trying not to be so blah but you see the thing is, I am not having very much success. Today as much as I could I tried to keep busy. That's been somewhat difficult because of my current situation, I gots me a bum leg and I can't get around very well. While I am better than I was, I still have a long way to go before I am better completely. I cleaned today and put away clean laundry. That took me a few hours and then by the time I was done with all of that, I decided to get myself a shower; which is a feat in and of itself. Then by the time I got that done, Mom came home and we had a small birthday thing and watched some re-runs of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition for a few hours.

Now I am here. It's nearing 11pm and I am going stir crazy. I've been in this position 2 other times and let me tell you, it still sucks. As I stated above, it's hard to get around. I have to wear this knee emobilizer. It is not only the most uncomfortable thing that I can think of in the world at this moment but it's the most incredibly annoying thing in the world at this moment too. Now this one is way better than the first two I had for my other surgeries but it's still annoying and uncomfortable. It slides down as I am walking so I have to try and take smaller strides and move slower. This has helped but it still slides down or gets all crooked like. It's just flat out annoying.

I am trying to hang on until I can see Steve again. It's driving me nuts!!!! I knew I would miss him but I honestly didn't think I would miss him this much. You know it makes me think about past relationships. I never missed my now exes like I miss Steve. It's weird in a way. But I know it's because I finally found real love. It's amazing. I look at him and I know like I did the first day I saw him after 7 years of not seeing each other, that he was the one that God had made for me. For the 6 months that we were in friends only/kinda dating mode, I told myself that he probably doesn't see me any other way but as a friend. But I recently found out that he would want to ask me out but would back down the moment he felt what he felt. He said this happened 3 different times. He said, "Then I just finally couldn't hold back anymore."

Ok, I think I better end this babble fest and call it a night. Maybe tomorrow will be a faster day than today was or at least the way it felt.

The Birthday Blog

So tomorrow (November 24th) is my birthday. To be exact it is my 31st birthday. I am not sure how to feel about it. This is for a few different reasons.

1) I am turning 31....who wants to get older???

2) My boyfriend, Steve is not here to celebrate it...he is in Louisanna for the holiday and as it with my current condition could not travel with him.

3) I am not into birthdays much anymore...

I don't know, I guess it's a "getting older" thing. I am trying to look at it as a new beginning. A new year to make my life better, myself a better person and, all that comes with new beginnings. So with that said, Happy Birthday to me!

3rd Times The Charm???

Ok, so I am finally able to see here long enough to update my blog and fill you in on why I asked for prayers. Holloween night, I was helping my sis in law with the kids because my brother was not home from work yet. We had just gotten to the 1st house and were about to leave for our next stop, that's when it happened. I felt myself about to fall and because I had Ava in my arms, I did everything I could to take the brunt of the fall. Before I continue, a little background...

About 10+ years ago, I injured myself by falling on some ice. I dislocated my knee and that is when all the troubles began. Since then I have had 2 surgeries, both of which did nothing to help my knee from dislocating. Ok, so now that you are filled in on that; I will go on.

So, Holloween night; we had just left the house and gotten to our first house of the night. Ava and Cole are still very young to understand trick or treating, so being me I was doing all I could to help Courtney with the kids until Jeremy got home from work, hoping he wouldn't miss what was left of the evening. Ava and I stared to walk down the steps of our first stop. She is a little slow at going up and down the stairs, so I decided I would pick her up and get her down the stairs quicker so that the other little ones in the neighborhood could get to the door for their candy. I was on the last step when I felt my knee cap come out of place. I could then feel myself start to loose my balance. Because Ava was in my arms, I didn't want to drop her and have her hurt. So, I grabbed for the railing more than I had my hand on it originally and slowly took myself down to the ground. I set Ava down and immediately straigtend out my leg to put my knee cap back in place. Instantly I knew it was bad when I could barely move; or for that matter get up. The ambulance was called and I was headed to the ER.

Now we are here. I am set for reconstructive surgery on Monday the 10th and I am praying that the 3rd time is the charm. I mean that is the saying, right? And things usually go right on the 3rd try, right? So that is why I asked for prayers.

Thank you all.

Asking for Prayers...

I really don't have much time to go into great details. But if you could please pray for me. Thanks!

New Things...

Ok, so my last posting was a little silly I suppose but I was too stinkin' excited. I can't explain these feelings. Those that are with the one that God had just for them knows where I am coming from with this.

Steve gives me this feeling of belonging, love and, feeling complete with my other half. I am not sure if this makes sense but this how I am feeling. 6 months ago, if someone were to ask me where I thought things were going with Steve and I, I would have said something like, "I really don't know. I hope for the best but I really can't say." Now as I look back, I am thankful for the time we took to get to know each other and learn about each other before jumping head long into a relationship. I know that Steve wanted to make sure that we would be making the right choice. I felt the same way with a few moments of admittedly wanting more than what we had but knowing that if I just gave a little more in the patience department I would possibly get what I wanted. *Thankfully it went the way I hoped for...lol*

Anyway, there are new things coming our way. Things that, as I told Steve, I would have to get used to because of well my not so great track record of dating, dumb guys lol!

It's Official!!!!!

Steve is no longer my friend boy....that's right! He is now my BOYFRIEND!!!!!!! Can we say, "YAY!"

The Results Are In...

So, I got a phone call the other day. My biopsy results showed that everything is normal. To say the least I am happy to know that I am a-ok. But for at least the next 2 years I will have to be watched and instead of once a year I will have to have my womanly exams done 2 times a year. Not really looking forward to that but I would rather deal with that than have cervical cancer.

On to other things going on...I'm in the process of looking for a joby, job. I would like to put my degree to work. I'm hoping soon to find something...the sooner, the better.

Welp, I think that is all for now.